This came about by a question which was posed to my daughter.. a paraphrase is: Is it possible to lose part of yourself, possibly magic and can it be regained? Now this is an absolutely GREAT question.
The best way to look at it is thus:
What you have felt is missing, is a connection to the spiritual world. Yes it can be filled, poorly, with witchcraft. What really needs to happen though is to accept Jesus as your Savior. Ask Him to forgive you and save you. After all, that is what He invites you to do, and it is what all of us need to do.
Romans 3:23 Forallhavesinned, andcomeshortof the glory of God
The good news is this: John 3:16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
And this is how we, as humans, are supposed to interact with the spiritual realm, through Jesus. You will find some conflict among the christian community about how this works and how much interaction with the spiritual world is proper. I invite you to read the Bible and then to read a book by John Rice called “The Power of Pentecost”. Those will set you well on your way. I’ll have some of the points showing up in the blog here, indeed there have been snippets already if you look at earlier posts.